Please Help!

http://www.gofundme.com/1cteu4--- Need $184.85 ASAP or her phone will be shut off... Ashley has no other way of communication, no car, no home phone... If an emergency happened she'd only be able to call 911 please help her!

I'm back bitches!!!

Sorry I've been gone. My computer died so I had to send my computer to get fixed then they told me it would cost to much to fix so since I had a warrenty I got a new laptop!! I love it. I'm still getting used to it.

Last Tuesday I got a fill it was only .3 which brought me to 5.8 cc in my 10cc band. Again .3 was to much for my band so I think I can say I'm at my sweet spot.

I've lost 51 lbs since aug 16 2011 I'm pretty excited about that.

School is way harder then I thought it would be. I should go study.

I just wanted to check in I'll write a blog tomorrow.

WLSFA COULD WIN $100,000

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You can vote for 10 different charities please make one of them WLSFA!!

I've only lost a lb.

How much have you lost?

1 pound = a Guinea Pig
1.5 pounds = a dozen Krispy Kreme glazed donuts
2 pounds = a rack of baby back ribs
3 pounds = an average human brain
4 pounds = an ostrich egg
5 pounds = a Chihuahua
6 pounds = a human skin
7.5 pounds = an average newborn
8 pounds = a human head
10 pounds= chemical additives an American consumes each year
11 pounds = an average house cat
12 pounds = a Bald Eagle
15 pounds = 10 dozen large eggs
16 pounds = a sperm whale’s brain
20 pounds = an automobile tire
23 pounds = amount of pizza a an average American eats in a year
24 pounds = a 3-gallon tub of super premium ice cream
25 pounds = an average 2 year old
30 pounds = amount of cheese an average American eats in a year
33 pounds = a cinder block
36 pounds = a mid-size microwave
40 pounds = a 5-gallon bottle of water or an average human leg
44 pounds = an elephants heart
50 pounds = a small bale of hay
55 pounds = a 5000 BTU air conditioner
60 pounds = an elephants genitals
66 pounds = fats and oils an average American eats in a year
70 pounds = an Irish Setter
77 pounds = a gold brick
80 pounds = the Worlds Largest Ball of Tape
90 pounds = a newborn calf
100 pounds = a 2 month old horse
111 pounds = red meat an average American eats in a year
117 pounds = an average fashion model (and shes 5’11”)
118 pounds = the complete Encyclopedia Britannica
120 pounds = amount of trash you throw away in a month
130 pounds = a newborn giraffe
138 pounds = potatoes an average American eats in a year
140 pounds = refined sugar an average American eats in a year
144 pounds = an average adult woman (and shes 5’4½”)
150 pounds = the complete Oxford English Dictionary
187 pounds = an average adult man
200 pounds = 2 Bloodhounds
235 pounds = Arnold Schwarzenegger
300 pounds = an average football lineman
400 pounds = a Welsh pony

*This is for all the people who think you've ONLY lost a pound*

Week 21 Post Op

Can you believe it? I had my surgery 21 weeks ago. I'm close to being post op for 6 months. I wanted to share how far I've came.

- I've learned that food no longer controls me.
- Healthy food does taste good.
- I've lost 48lbs which puts me at 292 I haven't been at this weight since Jan of 2009.
- I know how to eat now. I'm very closes to my sweet spot and I haven't PB in over a week.
- I've started to work out. I started the 30 Day Shred (I did it yesterday & it's killing me)
- I love the compliments I've been getting and it keeps me going.
- I love my band (although I haven't named her yet, I do know it's a female because it was moody.)
- I love all my supporters.
- I'm glad I found my YT (YouTube) family.
- I love my blogger family too.
- I love all the people in my group in facebook and the other WLS groups I'm in.
- I'm thankful for everyone & everything that's in my life.

Weightloss Challenges!

I made a group on facebook called Weight Loss Challenges! Which will be a weightloss challenge group of course. I will post a challenge once a month. There will be winners at the end. This month which starting kind of late will be the 30 day shred. Please join!!

Crying....

Seriously crying my eyes out. I feel like a horrible friend. I can't even begin to start why I feel like a horrible friend I just do. I can't tell my friends anything because I'm scared to lose them. If I lose them then I'll be alone. I don't really have to many friends. It's hard for me to tell them something with out looking like a bitch or that I'm jealous of them. That's not the case. I'm not trying to hurt them or take their happiness away either. I hate that I get so emotionally attach to my friends because I start acting all crazy when I feel passionate about something. I can't talk to a lot of my friends because I'm scared they won't tell someone. The only reason I'm scared is because we are all best friends with each other. There's handful of us. I feel like I'm the least person they'd want to be best friends with though. I've never felt like someone is my best friend that they are mine and I'm theirs and there isn't anyone else above me. I know it's a petty thing to think about but it's true. I want my friends to be happy I really do & it kills me to think that something might not work out the way they want and then they will be heart broken and it's the hardest thing for me to stand is one of my friends to be sad or hurt. It might be because I wouldn't want anyone else to feel the pain like I do. It's not fair noone deserves to feel like this. I should be able to tell them excatly what I'm thinking just like when they tell me what they think about my choices. I'll keep my thoughts and worries to myself. My tears will eventually dry up. I will be happy for them and smile the biggest smile I can & my heart will remain open when they need me. It their life not mine and I will not voice my thoughts on their lifes any longer. I'm sorry I'm a bad friend but I do love you.

24 hour detox!

So I've chosen to do the 24 hour detox with a bunch of ladies on Back To Basics on facebook. If your on facebook & have had WLS or not I'd highly recommend you join! It really helps you keep accountable. I have finally lost some weight. I lost another 2 lbs I'm down to 294.2. I will be updating through out the day to tell you about my journey though the detox!

10:00am: Check drank the Detox Juice (It didn't taste that bad).
11:00am: Drinking my water as I type!
12:00pm: Detox Jucice starting to not taste as good as I thoght.
1:00pm: Drinking my water... I'm not hungry.
2:00pm: Detox Juice (starting to taste super bad)
3:00pm: Water was delayed due to roommate
4:00pm: Drank water & Detox Juice
5:00pm: Water (back on track)
6:00pm: Detox Juice went to walmart had to pee so bad.
7:00pm: CRAMPS!!!! WATER!
8:00pm: Detox Juice - Still having super bad cramps but I'm determinded not to give up I was getting kind of hungry but I got on the Wii for 15 min and worked out.
9:00pm: Water & sat in the bathtub for almost a hour due to my cramps.
10:00pm Detox juice I kinda think it better again lol
11:00pm Drank my last of water took my pills and headed to bed with a heating pad due to cramos.


All in all it wasn't as hard as I thought. I wasn't hungry. You do pee a lot. I think I would have felt even better if I hadn't started my period. I will post how much I lost tomorrow.

2012: New Year, New Body, New Me, New Life!

2011 I had hit rock bottom. I hit my highest weight of 340lbs. My weight loss surgery got post-pounded. I had to go through a 6 months diet which I wasn't expecting which is the reason I didn't have my surgery until Aug 2011. I've lost 44lbs since 8.16.11 I'm very proud of that.

I thought I had found the love of my life last FEB. I was wrong though. He came with more baggage then I personally could handle. We broke up for good on the 29th of Decemeber. So I ran in the new year single & happy and excited for my new year.

I'm excited to go to Vegas in May. Two days after my birthday and a day after finals for the Weight Loss Foundation Of America's Meet & Greet. I'm excited to meet so many new people who gone through the same journey as I have.

My Goals for 2012 are the following.
I want to lose 50lbs by vegas (may 17th)
I want to lose 100lbs by 12.31.11 which means I’d be @ 196lbs (ONEDERLAND)
I want to complete C25k
I want to run the Lung Cancer Awarness 5k
I want to pay of half my debt.
I want to pass all my classes with atleast a B if not a A.

I think my list will grow more but that's all I can think of so far. I hope everyone has a great year & don't ever stop believing in you dreams or yourself.

Youtube my new love!

So lately I've been watching a lot of Youtube about WLS and it's really been helping. I follow quite a lot of people. Skymoon1982 & Lossingitwithbecca & bandedwendy! They have truely inspired me to reach for my dreams and nothing can stop me. I even made my own YT channel. It's if anyone wants to subscribe. So far I've only made one video but I'm planning to make more in the future.

Christmas Eve was great. I had a great food day. Although I have learned I have to drink warm.hot liquids before my meal to lossen my band or almost everything comes back up. I had shrimp and one roll which the roll took me a hour to eat. My roommate came with me to eat at my grandma's she had a great time too.

I also had a great Christmas! I got everything I wanted & more. The best gift I got was my boyfriend showed up to Christmas dinner & actually enjoyed his time. There were a lot of people at the house but it was fun. I did find out I love cheeseballs. I love cream cheese!!

Well I hope everyone had a great Holiday! 2012 gonna be a great year!

Meet Me On Monday!!!

Welcome to the 62nd edition of
"Meet Me On Monday!"

Blogging is a funny thing...we tell our most intimate thoughts for all to read and yet most of the time I find myself sitting and wondering, "who is this person!?" I know them...but yet I don't know them! I want to know who the person is behind all those words so I thought of a great way for all of us to "meet" each other!

Every Sunday Never Growing Old will post five get to know you questions that you can copy and paste into your own Monday post and we can all learn a little more about each and every one of us!!




Java will add a linky so we can follow who participates and get to know them better!! Be sure to link the POST and not just your whole blog!!







Questions:

1.Wrapping paper or gift bags? - I've wrapped all of my gifts this year!

2.Real or artificial tree? Artificial

3.When do you put your tree up? Day after Thanksgiving

4.When do you take your tree down? New Years Day

5.Do you like eggnog?I haven't ever tired it because it sounds nasty!

6.Do you have a nativity scene?No, but I would like one!

7.Favorite Christmas Movie? The Christmas Story//Elf

8.Favorite Christmas cookie? I don't really like cookies :-/ but I like no bake cookies.

9.Where will you eat Christmas dinner? It will be at my Mothers house!

10.Angel, bow or star on top of your tree? Angel

11.Most annoying thing about this time of the year? Feeling bad when you haven't bought someone a gift and they bought you one.

12.Do you like Fruitcake? I've never had one because it sounds and looks gross!

13.What are you most excited about the holidays? Getting to spend time with my family and friends!

14.Do you open presents Christmas Eve or Christmas Morning? Both, Christmas Eve we go to Grandma's and have a Shrimp FEAST and open presents at her house then open the rest on Christmas

15.Will you still be wrapping presents on Christmas Eve? No, All my gifts are bought and wrapped.

Under 300lbs BITCHES!!!

Omg I totally forgot to blog today about my mini goal!! I'VE LOST 41 LBS SINCE 8.16.11 WHICH MEANS I'M UNDER 300LBS. I'm so happy. I could jump off my house screaming. <3 Now to lose 9 more lbs before Jan 1. <3 I'll blog more tomorrow but I wanted to tell everyone right now before I forgot again LOL.

Always know where the bathroom is...

I want to Thank all my new people following me. I'll tell you a little about me. I'm 23, semi-single (very complicated), bought my first house in May. I recently got Lapband in Aug. I'm a drama queen & I wouldn't change my life for anything.

So I'm down to 301lbs. I don't know if I'll be at my mini goal of 290 by Jan 1 but I'm trying. Last Thursday I went down to Pat's Pub for .99 cent tacos which by the way are AMAZING. I ate 1 1/2 of them. I didn't want to push it to two. I've lately been having a problem stop eating. I guess falling back into bad habits. So I've been throwing up a lot. Today I've throw up 2 of my 3 meals... I don't know if it's because my band is tight last couple days or this drainage I've been having is causing me issues. I can say that I can puke without making a sound. I feel like I have a ED. I mean I guess I did but not one that you think of... I was a over eater. I was eating lunch with my grandmother today @ mcdonalds but I always get chicken nuggets. I ate maybe 5 got stuck and couldn't find the bathroom and we were about to go home so I didn't want to make a fit over anything. I couldn't wait to get back to my grandmothers to the bathroom. I need to slow down and cut my food up more and chew. I also been taking more pills lately because I'm trying to get back on track with my meds plus the doctor put me on two for depression.

On Sunday I baked cookies at my mother's house which was amazing it was so much fun although it was only Kim, my Mother & I. I drank a whole bottle of wine Kim brought over. It was for my mother but she can't drink wine because it has sulfer in it so I drank it. I baked cookies drunk lol they turn out good. I only ate 3 mini cookies. <3

Anyways not much else has been going on. I don't go back to work till 15th of Jan. Thank God my work has Short Term Disability & I get paid.

Eggface STOCKING GIVEAWAY!!

So I'm totally a sucker for giveaways @ EggFace has the best giveaways so here's the details.

It's the holidays so there must be a stocking! It's Giveaway Time!

The Prize: an AWESOME Christmas Stocking chock full of samples of some of my favorite weight loss surgery friendly products...

1 packet Celebrate Vitamins Strawberry ENS
1 packet Celebrate Vitamins Chocolate Milk ENS
1 packet Celebrate Vitamins Vanilla Cake Batter ENS
1 packet CLICK Espresso Protein Mocha
1 packet CLICK Espresso Protein Vanilla Latte
1 packet CLICK Espresso Protein Vanilla Latte All-Natural
1 packet CLICK Espresso Protein Mocha All-Natural
1 Apple Pie Quest Protein Bar
1 Wild Berry Quest Protein Bar
1 Chocolate Brownie Quest Protein Bar
1 packet Just the Cheese Crunchy Baked Cheese - Grilled Cheese flavor
1 packet Just the Cheese Crunchy Baked Cheese - Classic White Cheddar Cheese flavor
1 packet Kay's Naturals Protein Cereal - Honey Almond
1 packet Kay's Naturals Protein Cereal - Apple Cinnamon
1 packet Kay's Naturals Protein Cereal - French Vanilla
1 Sampler Set of Sugar Free Torani Syrups (4 - 150 ml bottles in SF Caramel, SF Raspberry, SF Vanilla, and SF Hazelnut)


So go to The World According To Eggface and enter to win!!!

Meet Me On Monday!

Welcome to the 61st edition of
"Meet Me On Monday!"

Blogging is a funny thing...we tell our most intimate thoughts for all to read and yet most of the time I find myself sitting and wondering, "who is this person!?" I know them...but yet I don't know them! I want to know who the person is behind all those words so I thought of a great way for all of us to "meet" each other!

Every Sunday Never Growing Old will post five get to know you questions that you can copy and paste into your own Monday post and we can all learn a little more about each and every one of us!!

Java will add a linky so we can follow who participates and get to know them better!! Be sure to link the POST and not just your whole blog!!



Questions:

1. Tomorrow I'm going to _________?
2. Pudding or Jello?
3. What book are you currently reading?
4. What is the first concert you went to see?
5. What is your current weather?
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My Answers!

1. Tomorrow I'm going to _________?

I'm going to the Chiropractor to get adjusted. I'm sure that I will go drop my roommate off @ work and pick her back up but beside that nothing.

2. Pudding or Jello?

I love pudding.. Jello is weird. I only like Jello if it is a Jello shot.

3. What book are you currently reading?

I'm not currently reading anything but the last book I read was "The Help".

4. What is the first concert you went to see?

SPICE GIRLS!!!! @ AGE 11! WITH MY GRANDMA!!

5. What is your current weather?

It's cold & about 34degrees and cloudy.

What the STUCK?

So ever since my last fill two weeks on Tuesday by band has been temperamental. Some days I get stuck on foods I shouldn't. Some days I can eat food I should be get stuck on. It's like a fucking food game. I did have my first experience with getting unstuck at a Mexican restaurant. I just excused myself from the table & went to the bathroom. Got unstuck then went back to the table and watched everyone eat. I never wanna eat after I get unstuck even though I'm still hungry. I feel like I can only eat real food after 7/8 pm. Since being off work my food choices have been a little better. I'm almost under 300lbs. I'm almost down FORTY POUNDS. I'm so excited. I'm at 303lb as of yesterday. Although I'm up today I always keep the lower number in my head and ork to get below it. I also think my band gets tigher when I'm on my period. Does anyone else feel that way with their band?

Stress Leave.

So today I went to the doctor & I'm DEPRESSED!! Shocking right. I'm also beyond stress that the doctor thinks I'm losing my hair because of stress. So I'm going to see a therapist weekly and I'm going to go back on meds. I hate meds I've been on & off of them for years. They make me feel like I'm a zombie. I'm hoping they will just get me back on track and I can be back to normal. Part of me is more stress because I'm off work although I know I'll get paid it still very stressful having my pay and hands with the doctor.

Also one of my roommates has chosen to move out which stresses me out too because no part of my extra income is gone. So now I'm in the search of another roommate. I'm hoping that will work out. -sigh-

So I'll be out of work for at least 4-6 weeks. I should have lots of time to blog.

M-I-Z-Z-O-U OR M-I-Z-FUCK-K-U :-)

Yesterday, I went to my first college football game! It's was awesome. It was at Kauffmen Stadium where the Kansas City Chiefs play. It's the longest sanding rivalry 120 years. This is most likely the last border wars game because MU moved conferences and is no long in the BIG 12. This game was very important because this game was a tie breaker game. The score was 55-55-9 so whoever one this game basically has the title of border war champs. So I got to my girlfriends at 9:45 am. The started tailgating at around 10:30 am. I had a protein shake with cake vodka & let me tell you it was so goooooooooooood! Then I had through out the day 3 smirnoff and one beer. I ate peanuts and chili/cheese nachos half of them atleast. I tried to make good choices but I figured I never go out and have fun so I'm gonna live a little. After the game which we(MU) won. 24-10! After the game we went to my friend parents house because they were out of town for the Staley State Champ game which is one of the 4 Highschools in the NKC school district btw they also won state champ. It was a great time. I can't wait to go to another game I hope the next was will be a NFL game. Also I will make better clothing choices. I wore ballet flats, jeans, a long sleeve shit and a MU shirt over it. I was so cold. It was 55 and raining when I left the house and I didn't think it was to bad but then the rain stopped and wind started. I froze to death but it was so worth it.


Also I weighed myself this morning & have lost another 4lbs in one day even after bad food choices. I was shocked. Total lost is now 34lbs since 8.16.11 :-)

Another Fill :-)

So I had another fill today. I got .8 in my band. I'm upto 5.7 although my doctor says I have 5.5 but on the paper she gave me it adds up to 5.7. I signed up for MyFitnessPal.com :-) I joined the band wagon. I'm hoping it will help me stay on track with my food intake.

I signed up for school today. I'm taking 3 classes in the spring :-) I was really worried I wouldn't get into the class I need to "start" my program in the fall but there was one spot that open up today & I grab it like nothing else. I'm hoping that work will work around my shift.

I feel like everyday I have some sort of appointment. Tomorrow I have the cable guy because our internet is sooooooooooo slow & I have the DryBasement people coming out to estimate how much it will cost to fix my basement. Then Thursday is Thanksgiving & I would be eating maybe some taders but that's about it. I feel like I have something Friday I'm not sure. The Monday I have a follow up with the CPAP people then I have a dentist appointment (I might have to move the dentist appointment only because I don't think I'll make it from one appointment to another since there is only a hour in between.) Then Tuesday I see a therapist. There's just been so much going on since May I need someone to talk too because I'm so stress out.

I hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving!! Please don't call you credit card company that day. I will be working LOL

P.S. I also took my measurement today. So I can start tracking it. I think I'll update that weekly with my weight loss.

Measurements
Bust 53"
Chest 49 1/2"
Waist 48"
Hips 55"
Thighs 30"
Calves 18 1/2"
Upper Arm 17"
Lower Arm 12"

Fur-Children

I love fur-children. I'm dog sitting for my parents while they go to the lake to check up on my grandmother and have some alone parent time since it's their anniversary yesterday. They've been married 24 years. I'm so happy to say my parents still love each other very much and they are still together. Not a lot of people my age can say that.

So I get to watch my fur-brother Gizmo who is a 2 year old POM which I absoutly love with all my heart. He's such a great dog. Then I get to watch my Fur-Uncle Yoda who is my grandmothers dog who is in NC visiting family for 2 months. She will be coming home soon. I can't wait because I miss her a lot. She really supports me in my weightloss. She buys all my protein powder for me and anything I need weight loss wise since I can't afford it by myself.

I also was told by my parents I had to "watch" my brother who is 16 almost 17 because without my parents here he'd most likely not eat the entire weekend. I think it's a guy thing they just play video games and drink pop and forget about actual food.

Still nobody has let me know how to join in on the secret bandit :-( I think of making a care package for my aunt who had her Surgery a month ago. So now I have a total of 3 Aunt and 1 Uncle who all have the lapband. 3/4 live in texas though :-(

<3